Why now? I find myself asking this question to none other than me. To me the answer is quite clear; Why Not Now?
If I am honest it’s not as simple as that though. Creating a space, creating something like this is something I have wanted to do for some time (hint: Pretty much since graduation). However until this moment, the moment I post this, none of that really matters because I did nothing. To me, this is opening me up and that comes with making myself vulnerable. It’s that vulnerability which has stopped me from doing this before. I wouldn’t complete a project because what if no one likes it, or reads it or just out right attacks me?
I don’t care now. (this is a lie)
I could also say “It’s time, I have none” This. Is. Also. A. Lie. If I have time to watch and code along to the “Handmade Hero” coding videos I have time to occasionally blog.
So again, why now?
It comes down to a single moment, some words in a song that’s been on my spotify “liked songs” playlist for a few years, rarely played. Yet has been somewhat on repeat since last week.
If I wrote down a hundred things
That I thought that I could do
By the time that I was 67
Would there be another list
Of 99 things that I missed
Just because I had a fear of failing
Would I have walked between two towers
Just like the man on wire
Even though he had a chance of falling
Would I have opened up my soul
And let inside that deep dark hole
Another human being capable of calling me back out
The first verse of “Man on a Wire” by Josephine West has pretty much been on repeat in my car
So, do I have a list of 100 things I want to do by the time I am 67? No, but I can tell you one thing. I should write such a list. OK, let me tell you two things, to create something would be on that list. That’s what this is. My attempt at creating something. A something I can post thoughts on areas of my work that interest me. A place where I might complain about a hotel, or sing it’s praises based on a work or holiday travel experience.
If I don’t do this now I probably never will. So now is the time for me to take some action. Albeit a tad late when I could have been doing this for a number of years now.